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you can call her miss boss, i got it backwards, criss cross, shawty got her own

2008-12-03T05:50:20Z

i moved out. with 2 russian guys. one is my bf.

im happy.

=]

i can't go no where unless you're by my side, i gotta have you here, i said right here by my side

2008-05-12T00:10:44Z

WHOA

i haven't updated in hella long its crazy

mad shit has happened and its weird.

sooooo where do i start?????

so i dated this dude and it was weird cause he had major baby mama drama and i def didnt like that shit...like she threatened me and shit....weirdo. but he just fed me a shit load of lies and like a dumbass i fell for that shit. gay. but fuck that...i decided to end it and its cool cause we were able to stay friends...hes my bodyguard still =].

uhm work is off the hook...im the visual sup so i change all the mannequins and pictures around the whole store...i thought id like it and i was super stoked that i got it but now i hate it =/ but i cant say anything cause i dont want to be forced to step down from a full time position. orly was forced out pretty much which was the gayest shit that has ever happened cause she was mainly the only reason i stayed...i mean of course i love the associates but they cant help me in the changing shit area...so now my alli is gone...and shes only been gone for a week and im already hating life. ive decided to start putting in apps at hella places....

i need to move out asap...but i have no money to do so....sooooo im fucked til then.

my car is still very nice...slowly pimpin it out....travis is giving me his rims when he gets his 24s so im soooo juiced...and im gonna get my tint asap! ive had some trouble making the payments which totally stresses me out but whatev...i just need to manage my moey better.

back to the topic of travis.........sooooo weve been friends for awhile now...we met in junior year. and he was a druggy and i was hella square haha..but yeah we were just flirting all the time but shit didnt happen...ok well the past few months we've been kicking it off the hook..like what. lol..and i guess we kinda fell hard for each other...and im pretty sure that i wana be with him...but i dont know if he can do that...or me...lol...we are such players...like i have hella guy friends that take me out and shit...and he takes hella bitches out and shit....and i really would drop all those dudes for him cause hes amazing and i really really really like him...and i mean he said the same shit to me and yeah yeah yeah we talked for hella long about it. but i dunno i guess we need to talk more. but im gonna be really upset if things dont work out...cause i dont think i have liked someone this much since greg.....weird. but fuuuuck im so confused and its weird cause i really miss him cause i havent seen him in like 2 or 3 days....so i got it baaaad. but i love it. hes amazing.

anyyyyyways...about the friends. a lot of shit has gone down...its weird. so victor, me, tiff, kaitlin, and liz....kicked it off the hook 24/7 for hella days. and now everyone has funk....vic and liz....liz and tiff...tiff and kaitlyn...and apparently now tiff has beef with me. =[

it sucks cause i love them all and i dont want them to think im picking sides and everyone is cool with that except tiff and thats why shes pissed. but yeah i dunno. ive been kicking it with kaitlyn and liz a lot lately and i luh it. they are bad bitches =]. but yeah ive also been kicin it with laura and megan as well and they are cool too...like i love having girlfriends but everytime theyve always been hella jealous and shit and i hate it...but these chicks arent like that and i love it...we can all just chill and gossip hella tough....victor and i became better friends...hes been doin some really gay shit lately though..but i just call his ass out on that shit cause its so bitchy sometimes. but i hope it doesnt fuck shit up. and im thinking tiff is gonna officially cut ties with me =(. and the fucked up part is she FLIPPED out on me for bumping her down on my top friends...first off, its myspace calm down....and second....she ditched me for 2 weeks straight like everyday...either for lisa or for travis...so i was pissed. but yeah whatever...im overrrrrr iiiiiiit! i love my friends that i have that dont need me to prove my friendship...it just is and we love each other for it.

my bday is comin up quick....and ill no longer be a teenager anymore...weird.. but im gonna go to the club and its gonna be crackin. =] i got these hella cute dresses...one for my bday and one for sex and the city night lol...yeah i said it....were gonna drink martinis and shit and dress hella manhattany and go see sex and the city the movie!! im stooooooked.

i have this dude on my jock hella tough and im NOT feelin it...and i mean im a total bitch to him but he doesnt get it i guess...ill just have trav beat him up...lol. =]

travis bought me this gorgeous ring at whitehall...its a fuschia stone square cut with a diamond on each side...i luh it. and he bought me the new gucci perfume that smells like pure heaven...=].

i need to go to the beach sooon...im dying for a beach day like whoa. i wanted to go today but it being mother's day and all kinda effed that up. lol

wii is my new shit...im officially addicted! its off the hook.. and i want one! boxing is my shit i fuckin pwn that shit. =)

im sooo hopped up on coffee i need to go somewhere and do something....

chck_chck_boom @ 2007-12-14T19:44:00

2007-12-14T20:06:17Z

I'm getting my tattoo today and I'm stoked! its gonna be so tight.

I crashed on daniels couch last night and my fucking hip is killing me. as if I don't have enought problems with my hips already geez.

went to the midnight showing of I am legend. that shit was sick! I fucking love will smith. he's a badass.

I'm being bored out of my mind right now....daniels punkass isn't up yet and I'm pretty sure his psycho ex gf is with him.....ahhhh.. I just want my tattoo!!!

its like 45 degrees here and I'm fuckin cold!

got a hella cute peacoat yesterday..I love it.

went to one of daniels meetings last night it was coo....I missed leahs share but whateva.....saw buddy and james fred leah and katie it was cool....we all went to the pizza place after.

there was this guy at the meeting who was so hopped up on coffee it was crazyness...haha. he said he drank about 30 cups a day! dayum!

I'm still broke =(. but I'm not negative any skrilla so I'm good!

got a paid day off yesterday. it was sick! got paid to sleep til 12 and then sit at the skatepark and watch cute boys do there thing...haha.

daniel needs to get the fuck up!
=( I wanna go.

made hella new cds...they all kick ass. and travis made me one its sick too!

I'm sleepy.

peace.

sweetheart, bitterheart now i cant tell you apart

2007-12-12T02:55:12Z

so

back again and doing much better...thank god

im still broke but i havent given up complete hope

im infuriated at wells fargo because they ate my whole check with some goddamn fee shit or something....i was heated! 350 something...gone!

but its payday thursday...so good thing.

i cleaned my room. i donated a good 400-500 dollars worth of clothing to the cerebral palsy foundation. i feel good about it

need to get a new phone...im over this sidekick...as sad as i am to be over it i am..

im getting my side tattoo on friday...daniel is paying for it! im sooooo stoked! i went with tiff to get hers and i needed to get something...so im goin!

work tomorrow at 4am yet again!

on sunday i flipped the fuck out on my team...i was screaming at them

i felt really bad afterwards because i yelled at marlon and aja and don...and i love them and they werent the ones who fucked up...

im excied for tomorrow cause i like truck days cause im with the people i like aaaaannnnndddd it goes by really fast.

i need my glasses back asap! my eyes are killing me lately.

i need a new credit card...i know thats ounds awful..but really...i need xmas gift! i need to buy something for

-matthew
-tiff
-don
-james
-daniel
-travis
-mi madre
-mi padre
-ava
-ryan

eek.

but yeah ill figure it out! i always do!

haha i met this kid named garrett...and i love him to pieces now....hes amazing. oh little punk skaters...they are my weakness!!

i made a new mix cd...its slappin.

i think im getting sick =[

peace

Still ballin, until I die You can bring your crew motherfucker I be ballin, they wonder why...

2007-11-29T03:32:23Z

so

my life..is at a point where ive kinda given up..but i dont want to give up. i dunno...its weird.

i hate work now..its gay as fuck..i used to love i but now me going to work i just look at it like whatever....i mean i love my team and shit...and hell of the other people i work with are awesome...but some people i am completely and totally over..like i want to quit so i can just say fuck you. haha

i stopped smoking pot as of two days ago...and im gonna stick to it...hell of my friends are gonna give it up...smiff, kayla, brandon...its gonna be a group thing. =]

im just gonna get hella healthy..i need to..i think thats why i have been feeling so blah..i have been eating horribly so my skin has been breaking out and my stomach is getting gross...and ive just felt shitty. so im gonna start making my lunches so i dont have to eat fast food and im gonna excersize everyday.

its gonna be good. =].

my credit card is at its limit. my cell phone bill is due. i owe my gpa 200 bucks. i owe my mom 100 bucks. and my next car payment is due on the 8th. my account got overdrafted .37 cents so i had to pay 34 fucking dollars. geeze man!

i seriously need to get my shit together like now!

so on the good side =]] marcus is moving back to the states at the end of december and im excited that i will have my swedish lover =]. i cant wait!

im listening to the new dane cook...its pretty funny haha.

ive been kickin it with greg lately...its nice. and ive been kickin it at the skatepark lately and its crackin...but its hella fuckin cold there....all the time.

i got a kohls charge...but thats not good....but then its great =]

gonna make this delicious cake for james for his birthday im excited cause its gonna be amazing.

went to the batting cages with travis the other day that shit is hella fun dude..travis is hilarious.

been kickin it in santa rosa lately with booger and i have an amazing time up there...i met some very hot guys =] loves it! but yeah i met some hella fun people out there they are crazy.

daniel's model review came back and hes about to get a fatty check and hes gonna take me to hawaii for my birthday...im soooo stoked for that! he said were gonna do a tahoe trip too.

i died my hair and now its blonde blonde..not golden blonde. i love it. even though other people have been dicks about it..whatever.

i went to the casino with daniel, ashley, tone, buddy, and few other people met up with us...i lost 60 bucks =/..but i had fun.

thanksgiving was awkward...melissa and mike arent talking to my mom and they dont want ava and ryan around her or some gay shit...and my mom and granddad have had beef for hella years..and mark and john just get on daniels ass about shit....and im the only one trying to have ava use her manners and its was horrible...lol. so as soon as dinner was over i retreated to my room then went to bed.

me my mom and dana went to tahoe to meet her friends. i burned with my mom and it was awkward. but whatever i got high...haha..her friends were weird but what else is new? i got a new pair of boots and a bomb ass hat.

and the most excitment all weekend was when we were driving home i started to flirt with these two guys and they were hot motorcross guys and then we ended up getting way ahead of them and exited like 10 minutes later...and sure enough they pulled into the gas station where we were and they didnt get gas or anything...just kinda sat in the truck and my mom was like...hey you guys were meant to meet so i went and introduced myself...they were goregeous...and so we talked for a bit...then we headed on.

this entry is crazyness. haha.

but yeah work tomorrow at 4 am and i dont want to go

but lindsey i guess has a hook up for this new job for me...starting 15 an hour and full benefits =] CRACKIN!! so im gonna look into that for sure

oh yeah and i had this really weird dream last night...i was at this skatepark...one i didnt know..like not familiar...then graham was there and he had really really long hair, and pat was there and his head was shaved but the top part of his hair was bleached...and thomas was there and he was hella tall..like 6 foot 5 or something. and ronnie was there...and he was giving me a piggy back ride everywhere..and thats pretty much all i remember. lol

i need to stop this is crazy!!

oh yeah lastly...i found out something that can ruin someones relationship and the bitch doesnt even know it...muhahahahahaha....cunt!

oh yeah and michelle and evan hooked up...psh..wow. how sad. i heard that and almost peed my pants from laughing so hard. im so happy im not a pathetic person who feasts on sloppy seconds =].

my swedish love will be here soon

peace

chck_chck_boom @ 2007-11-10T20:14:00

2007-11-11T04:35:16Z

OMG

so i want james [from santa rosa] to be my boyfriend....like i havent felt this way about someone in awhile...like a few years. ive just been non stop thinking about him. its so weird. but i went out to santa rosa again..and we kicked it with daniel and buddy. we hot tubbed and went up this fatty drive in calistoga and it ended at the top and you looked down on just a huge stretch of vineyards...and they all yelled and i saw like 9 shooting stars and we lied there and just talked and had hella fun. and at the end of the night i dropped daniel off cause his house came first and then when we got to james' buddy went inside hella quick and james lingered and invited me in and i was so bummed that i had to turn the offer down cause i had work the next day. =[

but im goin back out there monday or wednesday so hopefully i will get to see him again. =]]] just thinking about him makes me feel happy..

i feel like such a dork cause i feel this way but i like it haha.

but anyways.
work has been blah...i still love the people and the work...but sometimes i just feel like its so out of control and its so frustrating.

went to an 80s party at the amador house...hella funny to see what everyone came up with for their outfit.

went and saw dan in real life...it was pretty funny..haha...there were some hella awkward moments where you were embarassed for them haha

work at 5am tomorrow. ugh.

i had way more to write but im too tired to think of what it was...

peace

you'll find my baby picture in modern dictionaries next to mighty mercenaries and visual visionaries

2007-10-29T00:50:15Z

so my fucking costume never showed up...i paid extra for it to be here on thursday and it never came...wtf??

i was pissed...so right before dans house i had to go to party america and get another one which sucked cause i already dropped hella money on my other one..

but anyways i ended up being a pirate and i looked hella cute.

me, tif, liz, and kayla all got ready at tif and liz's apt it was hella fun just getting ready then we swooped up a bottle of grey goose and practically killed it between us on the ride there.

got there and saw hella people i knew it was so much fun..

i saw my little cousin nick and it was weird to party with him but whatever it was tight.

i lost my bandana and my o rings from my gauges...and i lost my camera for a little but but thank god kayla found it..i was hella scared

i was so wasted though haha...i dont remember a lot of the night..

but i do remember us being the cutest girls there...hahaha...i love us.

saw some people looking hack as fuck and it was funny cause they thought they looked good

liz spit in stfu alyssa's face and ripped her wig off and shit..haha..i wish i could have seen it...that broad is a bitch.

ended up chillin with greg and i crashed at will/brandon/tewie/zach/taylor's place with greg...puked hella tough..ew.

woke up the next morning helllllla thirsty so greg and i walked to the 7 11 about 5 blocks away and i was still wearing my costume..haha...i looked like a hooker...and i got whistled at a lot...lol...

then greg and i hitched a ride to gregs with brandon and when we got there i saw his mom...and i love her she the sweetes thing in the world...anyways so we ate waffles and then greg and i ended up lying in bed til 430 haha...sleeping most of it..

then we headed to benicia and got food at village deli then went to tifs to chill

then tiff decided to throw a little halloween thing at her place so i left to go get ready

then we all kicked it at tiff and liz's for hella long..talked with reagan about so deep stuff...it was nice...met this guy named luis who was cool

and then sat with donut and this kid who i dont know what his name was but he was tight and kayla..

then went home cause i felt like shit

im hella sick...my voice is barely hangin on..and i am coughing like crazy.

went to san jose with dana today to visit matthew..i bought him a new famous hat and he looks hella cute in it..we went to chilis then i dropped him off

i have work at 5 tomorrow and im not looking forward to it especially cause james wont be there...i miss him that little turd.

but i am workin with chris and its a table and tower truck so those are hella easy..

i bought new work pants and new work shoes...i also picked up a pair of all black hightop chucks...

i need to stop spending money =/

my car payment is comin up on the 8th...and i also have to pay for insurance...and i also have my phone bill comin up...ugh...but its all good

im tired as fuck

i need to get my hair done then eat then pass out

peace

hello little boys little toys with the dreams you believe in crawling up the walls

2007-10-21T19:56:28Z

So I'm definitly in need of a fatty update

Ok so this is gonna be jus randomly placed. haha

So I went back to SLO and had even more fun than the last time..it was hella fun....ended up being reallly drunk and took my shirt off cause rule number 1 is no shirts...hah...it was me and like 12 guys just beer pongin it up....helllla fun.

Tiff got a new apt with liz and its badass....so I've been chillin there quite a bit and there will def be more fun nights...

Last night I was suppossed to hangout with james but he's a bitch....lol....but I ended up going to tiffs and smoking and playing a fat game of jenga.....we played that shit for at least 2 hours dude. But hella folks were there...kayla..tiff..liz..kaitlin...this kid named adam who was weird....joel, who I met that night....hatzi...brandon....donut, who I met as well....and willy....it was hella fun. There's was hella drama at the end of the night and this stupid bitch [travis' ex] threw a drink in tiffs face and then broke a glass over her head....it was so intense...but she called the cops and since everyone was high and drunk we hid in liz's room it was hella weird cause we were all being hella quiet but it was so hard to not laugh....

Went to san jose at like 10 am yesterday....swooped up matthew and we went bowling and roamed he mall...it was so much fun...I love him to death...I wish he lived closer.

Then we went to his soccer game and I saw everone...and my gramma and grampa came down from washington and so I got to see them...yay....when my gramma hugged me she hugged me for so long...she missed me so much during the whole fight with me and my dad...and she's so happy I'm back around...hungout with nathan and he's progressing so well and I love that no mater what he remembers me and he's just so fucking sweet....

Then I went shopping at tillys and bought myself a new jacket...purse...and sunglasses...all of which are adorable...I love my jackt so much.

Then we all went to stephs house for danas bday thing...and everyone was there except randi who was camping haha...so I was texting her and teasing her..lol

I'm in need of daniel time! I miss my booger! Were gonna hangout this week for sure.

Went to zach taylor brandon and matts house warming party it was so awesome seeing all the old school friends I miss them ridiculously so...haha...I need to hangout with bobby more too....then me bobby and maxwell hit up dennys after that shit was hilarious.

I ran into evan...it wasn't as awkward as I thought...we talked for a sec and then I was kinda over it...lol...but he lost my bike...I was pissed but he's gonna pay me 60 bucks...and I want that shit now!

I don't know what I'm gonna be for halloween yet...but I need to buy that shit asap...

I won the contest at work so I get to pie kate in the face...and I'm so excited 1 because she's a bitch and 2 because everyone wanted this and I got it! Hahaha

Peace

mic check one two, tell ya what im gonna do, grab a juice and pop two, then act a motha fuckin fool

2007-10-02T01:30:30Z

this weekend was amazing!

went to SLO friday..drove down there with beau to see danny..we got there at 430 and partied from the second we got there...then stayed at danny's apt. we cuddled and talked about life it was great! i love him and miss him so much man!

anyways...details of the night....

beer pong
wii
walking around campus
meeting new people
hungout with hot boys =]
beau bit the tops off of every beer can in the apt
killed 2 30 packs between 5 people and shots were involved as well
cuddled
passed out
taking tons of pics

then the next morning we woke up hit the dennys and then went to pismo beach and chilled in the sun for awhile

then beau and i headed home..

got home and changed and then went to dinner with daniel and caught up with him..i love him more than anything in my life...for real...

then my friend hit me up and wanted me to come chill so we ended up chillin at like 1130 and we drank and smoked til fuckin 6am...learned how to play poker, drank hennessey, killed two blunts, laughed hella much...it was hella fun...then we passed out on the couches..haha...the funny part is i took the long couch and he took the short couch...lol...but whatever.

woke up at 1030 then went to work at 1...lol...i did not want to be there and i had to work with kate..ugh...but seriously fuck her...shes hell of irritating.

and thats it for now..haha

peace

i'm fresha than a mufucka yeah i'm a mufucka

2007-09-23T21:42:23Z

so basically life is kicking ass

haha i love it

my new car is amazing.

work is awesome...i love everyone i work with with the exception of two people....and two people outta like a hundred isnt bad eh?

gonna drive down to SLO this weekend to party it up with danny and i think ash is gonna roll with me =] im so stoked for that!! i miss danny sooo freaking much.

uhm...gonna see transformers in IMAX on tuesday..im also pretty excited for that.

saw good luck chuck..it was funny....and dane cook is hot...so yeah.

this week of work is gonna be pretty intense....ugh..i just hope it all goes smoothly...

im over not having someone...like a boy...i just want something....it doesnt even need to be a full on relationship...like..haha...just someone that i can chill with and cuddle with...

hella late for work today =/ eek....but there was a little mishap with erick and him losing his keys so.....yeah. today was just ridiculous and i was running on an hour of sleep...like no joke...so i was delirious all day.

erick brought me, touine, gary and chris enchiladas...they were hella good...

i need to get my hair done....but my mom wont answer her damn phone.

last night i got stuck watching ryan and ava and it was insane...ugh..man i wish i wouldnt have caved...

i gotta be at work again at 5 am tomorrow and its gonna be craziness....i just hope its cleared up..

i suppose thats all for now

peace

oh oh oh oh oh ohhh why'd you have to go away from home me love

2007-09-11T07:55:33Z

So basically I got a brand new fuckin car...{09.08.07} and I fucking love it!!

Its a 2007 black nissan altima...it has the push button ingnition...so there is no key... totally futuristic

Aaaaanddd

I bought it myself....no co signer or anything! I'm proud of myself

I deserve it. =)

Anyways....I love work...today sucked buuuut it didn't end that badly....I'm loving work more and more and I'm glad of that cause now I have car payments to pay!!

I was so close to getting the civic but I didn't....and I couldn't be happier...like seriously I freaking love my car now...it has a ballin ass stereo and everything you could want in a car.....except a sunroof but its not really a big thing for me so meh =)

I'm chillin in santa rosa with daniel....hella funny...just went shopping with tone and daniel for new shit for their rooms....we pimped daniels room out.....yeeeeeeyah. Went to this taqueria and had some hella bomb ass nachos....fuck yeah!

I have tomorrow off........uhm heck yes!!

I'm fucking tired man.

Peace

sippin martinis eatin scampi and linguini making blunts disappear like I'm houdini

2007-08-31T11:58:35Z

Wow...yeah its 447 in the am....lol....fuck its hella early and I do not wanna work right now...ugh

Talked to mi pradre yesterday and told him I gotta tattoo...lol...then it was funny cause he was talking about getting somethin and I said we should get inked together and he was down...lol...loves it

He about to get something for me, dana, and matthew. Tight!

Didn't tell him that everyone pretty much gotta star except marie...hehe...whoops.

Syke!

Bout to chill with my BFF bobby and nate tonight I'm stoooked!

I need some fun like whoa. I've been working like crazy.

Missed out on the lakehouse this weekend but its aiight.

So this morning I walked outside and our sensor light was already on and its never on when I leave and it scared the shit outta me....then this raggety truck with one headlight rolls down the hill...and crept helllllla slow by my car....creeeeeepy!!

Got my new kicker in the mail....the space bar is really stiff and the trackball rattles...so I'm pretty sure I'm gonna have to return it for another...geeze.

Work yesterday wasn't so bad...it went by really fast and I worked with cool people...today I hope goes the same but seeing as though I will be leading a team that consists of half tight people half lame people...ill be happy if we even get outta the truck on time.

I love my tattoo =)....I'm really happy with it.

Oh I saw danny, bobby,taylor, and graham at bobs last night. I loved it. I miss the skaters sooooo much I remember just sitting at the skatepark for hours and hours and never got bored or anything...

Ahhh the high school days <3

Off to work

Peace

face like a model, shaped like a bottle

2007-08-29T06:13:08Z

so my tattoo is amazing

and im already planning out my net one, its gonna be on my side...and big and tropical colors...like reds oranges yellows bright blues...mmmm im stooooked

and im gonna get my other two asap

told my nana and granddad and they disapproved...what else is new with my life..haha

went to chilis last night with dana..hella funny. we got the shittiest waitress ever but i almost spewed arnold palmer everywhere cause we were laughing so freaking hard

supposses to chill with ash tonight but she bailed...ho...lol

nate and i rescheduled for frieday and were gonna do it big

i want marcus to move to cali right now...honestly..i knew him for two weeks and i had just met him and i havent seen him since...but i miss him

work was cool tonight...worked with twon, don, and jenny...and erick and sekula were around...the day went hella fast and i like that

this chick quit on the spot cause jenny called her out on her doing some shit.

whatever...now im down a person on truck on friday BUT she wasnt an amazing worker soooooooo yeah

might go to stinson on saturday with melissa mike and the kids...havent decided yet

need to get a car...i need to save my money...like for real but now that i want more tattoos i fear that im about to spend hella money on them...

but im gonna try really hard to save for my car...i just need to save like 1500 then ill go look...

need to pay off my credit card too...ugh..not looking forward to that. hah

its hotter than hell in my room......uhmmm ew...

gonna hangout with kim and bobby and nate soooooon....i miss them all

i love will and grace hahaha

im fuckin tired

peace

I aint got no money I aint got no car to take you on a date

2007-08-27T11:57:55Z

Sooooooooo

I got my tattoo!!

Uhm fuck yes...it looks so badass....I love it...it came up only 80 bucks.....the guy who did it was hot....it took about 25 minutes....and I took it like a champ.

Amazing expirience..I loved the place too...definitly gonna go back to them...its in santa rosa.

Daniel and ash went with me and it was fun.

Grubbed down on chinese afterwards.

Took some funny pics with charlie brown...haha...yeeeeah....

Hella sweet.

I want moooorrrrrrre hah

I almost got another one right then and there cause my first one only came to be 80 bucks. Haha.

Didn't tell the g rents yet...haha....prolly today...I just don't wanna hear it...they'll whine about it forever..they are still on my ass about my lip ring and that was what almost a fuckin month ago....geeze

Love kickin it with daniel...I hate that we don't as much as we used to....but that shall change. =)

We have a truck today and I sooooo wanna go home.

My grandpa is doing better so....fingers crossed its stays that way...

I'm starving. Ugh...I hate having to be at work at 5am.....I don't have time to eat..and nothing sounds appealing to me at 430am. Lol.

My toes are just numb feeling....its weird...lol

I hope working today doesn't affect the healing time of my tat or mess it up at all...

Eek

Peace

lets get lost tonight you can be my black kate moss tonight

2007-08-22T20:10:52Z

ok

wow i havent posted in hella days

so drama with kerry went down...like hella lame shit and it was stupid..haha

my grandpa had a heart attack and hes in hawaii so we cant even be there....its kinda depressing

im fucking so over school...im gonna drop my photo class...i just cant deal with the late hours at school and hella early hours at work.

i need to go see beau's punkass

i want someone to hug on me...someone who is gonna be there and not say shit and then expect me to forgive them when they say sorry...i dont need that shit

im kinda glad. it didnt need to happen...and honestly...it couldnt.

my mom and i got into it yesterday...wanted to beat her face...ahhh....she infuriating.

i need to pay my cell phone bill....ASAP

chilled with tiff and liz last night and burned....it was nice....then grubbed down on hella pancakes and hashbrowns...lol.

i want a steak quesadilla right now.....im gonna get one...believe me

i cant wait til friday cause im getting PAID

i bought a new jacket at kohls....hellla fuckin cute.

the truck got cancelled tomorrow so yay.

i need a vacation please.

im getting my tattoo this weekend...no bullshit...i need to...like if i keep pushing it off then ill never get it....and i want it sooooooooo bad!

peace

ooooo i just died in your arm tonight, it musta been somethin ya said

2007-08-13T03:33:25Z

so.

muscle bought me a juicy couture charm bracelet..i love it.

i could believe it i was soooo stoaked.

man hes fuckin sweet...i love feeling special like that =]

gonna hangout like a ferris buellers day off status...its gonna be tight.

im gonna get a new car...yes! im so juiced.

i have to be at work at 6am again tomorrow....man im tired, worked in my stockroom and it was boring.

but the thing about working in the sockrooms are that the day goes by soo fast cause you are just caught up with all this shit...

i wanna cuddle coco chanel....merrr i miss her.

im tired

peace

you can be my sidekick the only one that i ride with smoke a blunt and get high with

2007-08-11T01:11:22Z

so i love being single.

its amazing and hella guys at work are mackin now cause they heard through people.

i made a new friend and i love him....like he is hella tight. we text all the fuckin time and we are always put on the same projects at work and so we can kick it there and its chill. then we came to benicia and chilled on the pier talked and was just kicked back.

he has a girly and thats causing hella drama at work cause all three of us work together....but i dont want anything to happen where there needs to be drama.

i love being higher on the food chain at work too..haha..it makes me feel hella more important. all the managment actually come to me and talk rather than order me around.

i went to vacaville for training and it was pointless to say the least...whatever

k drove from suisun to benicia to pick me up at 5 am and then drove me to vacaville and then picked me up later..i loved it..had hella fun.

he made me a new cd as well and it slaps..i love it. its hella bossy. hah

peddlers fair tomorrow and randis softball tournament and im stoked. tonight im gonna try to kick it with ashley and i hope we have some fun times.

supposed to go to fred's bday thing tonight...im calling dana right now to see if she'll go with me. smiff cant cause she has work tonight til 7 then 6am for peddlers fair.

danas gay...lol.

i still dont know what my pay is..ugh...but im getting retro for it. so sweet.

got paid today and i only had 20 hours so it was weak

ooo bought an impulse shirt last night hella late...haha....but its gonna be sweet....it says "that's what she said" ha!

work today was long, saw kimi and she's doing better which is good...i was kinda worried but im not close enough to call her up and say hey..

nothing for visual today so i had to do yellow ticket...ugh...i hated it!

had lunch with erick today and discussed the truck..i need to sit down with orly and jennifer to try and see about some changes on my truck. lol.

man i wanna go but i want someone to be my buddy....imma hit some other people up...ugh man...

im out..

peace

out in the streets they call it murder

2007-08-06T00:31:49Z

i'm sad..

the break up has hit me, all of a sudden i just felt it and started to cry...

this sucks...

i want to talk to him...i wanna just be able to see him..even if we arent lovey...

i need the closure.

i hate crying...i hate it a lot. especially when im as hurt and lost as i am right now

peace

party like a rock party like a rockstar party like a rick party like a rockstar

2007-08-05T02:52:00Z

So.....evan davis and christina kozacek are no longer a couple.....

i was so depressed...not for losing evan but for just not having a person to go to for hugs....

he was really mean about the whole thing and im so glad that im not as fazed by this as i thought i would be...

he did it over the phone too which i laugh about still. grow a set...please.

im glad to be out of it, i didnt see myself carrying on with him as my life partner....i cant stand some of his things, like in the beginning i was like "oh youre so cute, i love how youre different" and now it just bugs me.

but anyways, im worried about my kitty...shes at his house and i dont have a place to put her so...ahh...i need help.

i got my lip pierced.

loves it! it looks cute...and the guy who did it was a hottie, i want him...mmm...i love being able to flirt and be single...i missed it

ran into tiff and hungout with her and i met her roommate nicole and her friend kaitlin and then her roommates cousin marissa and they were amazing i loved hanging with them cause they have the same personality as me so we went together well....saw some hot guys at a party smoked two blunts and then woke up high and smoked a bowl, rearranged the living room with tiff and marissa and then smoked another blunt....it was awesome.

ive been chatting it up with this guy from work and its fun, i think he has a crush but im not feelin it, hes sooo not my type, but i love his company and support.

i dunno.

gonna party like a rockstar with ash tonight...fuck yes! and hopefully meet up with hella people at tiff's nicole is gone so itll be chill....i like her but shes kinda moody....meh whateva...i like her.

man this is a fatty post..

i want my shit back from evan, hes not getting back the two things that i have of his, not because im creepy but they have become part of my routine and comfort zone so to change it...itd be weird....so ha!

going to the beaqch tomorrow with my fam, hella fun, im loving hanging out with my family...weird but nice....like we can just chill, no judgement or jealousy....love it

i would also like to persure a relationship with marcus...my boy from sweden...hes hot and i luuuuuuve him! haha...im just gonna move to europe to be with him, and if shit doesnt work then ill just live in england with my fam there....yay! haha

i wanna go to hawaii!

like now that im not tied down i feel like so much more is open to me..

i feel awesome. im loving life right now and i love the fact that i love it so much..

im getting my tattoo as soon as my first check as a supervisor comes in!! whoop

peace

chck_chck_boom @ 2007-08-02T22:08:00

2007-08-03T05:05:48Z

its.over.=[

im off to sleep this day away i want it to be over

goodnight

hey i was just a skinny lad never knew no good from bad

2007-07-31T22:30:01Z

So....

i got my promotion..fuck yes!

im am now a supervisor and i will have people who report to me!! haha!

im super syked.

jennifer and orly were too excited to wait til friday, when its official, so they told me today.

i go into tomorrow at 5 am and i get to yell at people and make people do what i want...

and i have a lot of support on the truck team so yay. there is this one little faggot that needs a kick in the balls but ill take care of that. ha

and today the bracelet that michelle made me hella long ago, like perfect mourning era, fell off today...just like that...ive had it on for about 3 years and bam all of a sudden it fell off....so i dunno if its a sign or what...we shall see

im wiped out...today wasnt even that rough of a day but im just pooped.

talked to tiffany again. i missed her crazy ass.

gonna be a good rest of the year.

we moved into the new house this weekend.

we got the kitty over there and then she bolted and i thought she was gone forever but she came back....yay!

she loves the new house.

i need to name her...fast im gonna think of it now so i can make a tag for her.

i wanna move!! my nana is driving me up the fucking wall.

and it took me 30 dollars to fill my tank...this is amazing...and the best part is, itll last me for about a week.....fuck yes

peace

my eyes are gettin weary, my back is gettin tight

2007-07-29T01:59:31Z

EIGHT LASTS:

8. last kiss: evan
7. last beverage: milk
6. last phone call: uhm...melissa
5. last text message: evan
3. last BUBBLE bath: like 2 hours ago....mmm i was nice
2. last time you cried: i think saturday morning
1. last time you hugged someone: i tackled evan and then lied down in him and cuddled for a little bit

SIX things you did in the past three days:

6. Went to school: hell no...its summer
5. Went to work: yeah...the past three days...off today though
4. Colored: nope
3. Got drunk: nope...friday before last was when i was last...
2. Slept: uuhhh dur
1. Hurt yourself: i went wakeboarding and at te time it wasnt hurting...but now....im sore

THIS YEAR…

Made a new friend: yes....like a lot...
Fallen out of love: nope
Laughed until you cried? yes
Went behind your parents back: no
Met someone who changed your life: nope
Gotten close to someone: uhmm...a few people

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF..

1. Bush: ugh....lame

2. Gay marriage?: let it be

ABOUT YOU:

4. Straight, Gay, Bi?: straight

6. Do you believe in love at first sight?: sometimes...

7. Is there something you want to tell someone? oh i have a few people that i would like to throw my two cents at....but i dont

8. What kinda shirt are you wearing? my "draft beer not people" one

9. How many kids do you want to have? 5....

10. Do you have a good relationship with your parent(s): yes....my dad and is relationship can use some work and to loose a bitchy stepmom

11. Do you want to change your name? um kinda

12. What did you do for your last birthday?: got a massage and then went to an A's game then to evans to meet michelle and kelsy... felt sick and went to bed

13. What time did you wake up today?: uhm...about 9ish i think

14. What were you doing at midnight last night? fast asleep

15. Name something you CANNOT wait to do?: move out, buy a puppy, have a baby, get married, get a new car...i got lots

16. Last time you saw your father?: thursday at berryessa

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? my living situation and car situation

18. Which hand do you like better? my rightmy right one.....it wasnt fucked up by the nail salon

19.What are you listening to right now? tv

21. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? everyone has

22. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? not sure

23. Who’s getting on your nerves right now?: a few select people

24. Most visited webpage? myspace, livejournal, and yahoo.

25. Coke or Pepsi?: coke...but i dont drink dark soda anymore....unless its grape

26. Do you have a crush?: a little

27. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? yup

28. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? yeah but not to the point where i think i can change it

29. Do you think there’s some models/people out there that should gain a couple pounds? i dont care....i myself could loose a few

30. Do you enjoy your friendship with your friends? some yes, some no

you're way too beautiful girl that's why it'll never work you had me suicidal, suicidal

2007-07-28T05:30:24Z

Sooo....I'm in need of an update.

Bone bash was freaking awesome!! Got there in perfect time... got some nice seats and rocked out to skynyrd..

Ava's party was amazing, a little stressful at first I was totally the glue that kept the party together....melissa was flipping out and mike was egging her on....lol.

Swam hella much....ryan was dubbed my child for the day...I had to take care of him...took him in the pool and he loved it.

Swam with nates little bro austin he was hecka cute.

Didn't get the comcast job but got a raise at kohls that same day....haha....

I got upgraded to visual and set up the student lounge area in kohls....it looks hellah good....and with james wit it was fun..we just go back and forth at each other....good fun

Made the beds at kohls and it looks nice. And I got lots of positive feedback. Yay.

Only got scheduled 20 hours this past week but managed to push it up to 30 haha...yay.

Hungout with beau...we went swimming and then to randys for nachos...mmmm

I got a kitty....ash and jessica moved to arizona and jessica couldn't take her cat and so now I have it....gotta think of a new name for her.

Gonna be moving evans house this weekend.

Went wakeboarding yesterday with my dad, uncle chuck, dana, matthew, billy and mikey it was sooooo fun.

I did some new stuff...fell hella hard attempted a front flip of the side of the boat and syked myself out and ended up landing on my back...owie. Speaking of owie my mikey was ride his dirtbike down the hill at spanish flat in berryessa and his front tire got stuck in the pit and he faceplanted in the dirt and his whole face was scabbed up and he couldn't close his mouth.....yeeesh!!

Got some sweet pics and got to hangout with matthew..

I worked truck this morning had to be at work at 5 but I had to leave even earlier cause I had to swoop up my boss... and then I supervised the truck with orly and it was fun....

I have this weekend off....yay.

Oooo I bought new perfume its the juicy cuture.....mmmm...I'm addicted..officially.

I'm sore sore....ahhhh

Went and saw the simpsons movie with my madre and dana....its good..

I wanna see good luck chuck....omg its gonna be hilarious.

Got my new glasses....they look hella cute on and I get hella compliments...

Romeo died =( so sad.....zeppelin is still here though so at least they didn't both die...

I'm tired......goodnight

If I forgot anything ill update tomorrow.

Peace

hey mr tambourine man play a song for me in a jingle jangle morning I come following you

2007-07-17T03:32:51Z

Our anniversary was AMAZING

Mud baths are weird but soooo nice...haha.. Then the showering down afterwards was pretty hot...lol. Then we got to soak in a jacuzzi for a little bit then we did a cooling session and then had our hour massages which were awesome and then had facials with the best smelling stuff ever!!

Then we took this cut road to the melting pot and it was down this really nice green road and there were tree tunnels!

Then we ate dinner and it was delicious and we tried some new stuff and it was better than last time and I had the BEST salad I've ever had.

Then we drove home and bonded and just had fun.

A perfect day.....hands down!

And evan said we're probably gonna do it annually haha....yay!

I love you evan and hope that we will be together for years and years to come!

On another note.....

Dee offered me the eclipse for a mere 30 bucks a month for the insurance....and that's awesome cause its better than my piece.

And she got a new kitty.....its so cute its all grey with little white paws. And her name is cinderella. Awwwww....I want one!

Took ava to the pool today and its was nice...I didn't swim though....I should have though....whatever.

Ava's pool party is on saturday and I'm gonna help melissa set up for it....and then bone bash is on friday....uhm fuck yes!

Meet and gret tomorrow.....I'm soooo nervous cause the point of this is to be all perky and all loud but I'm not like that but if I want this job I need to be....I want this so bad....

Please let me get it...please.

Evan has the day off tomorrow so when I get home from my meet and greet we're gonna go for a bike ride.

My urban outfitters stuff came...well part of it....I got my shoes and they are fucking adorable...my hat is ballin like crazy and my key chain bottle opener key thing is sweeeeet.

Tomorrow my shirt should be here.

Tomorrow I'm gonna hangout with beau...yay! And if not tomorrow for sure on wednesday....

I gotta go to bed......=(

Peace.

how does it feel? how does it feel? to be without a home like a complete unknown like a rollin stone

2007-07-15T06:18:19Z

So tonight sucked the biggest balls....lol.

Tomorrow is the official 1 year anniversary. Its a pretty big deal and I really wanted tonight to be apart of that but whatever.

I'm hungry and sad and wanna cry but everytime I start I realize that I'm home alone and its dark.....ugh....

I ready for this day to be over.

On the better side of the day...dana and I picked out what she is gonna wear in her extra shot for senior pictures..

She straightened my hair and we ate sandwiches...haha....

I need my massage tomorrow for sure. And I'm excited for the melting pot...mmmm.

I wrote a lot today...my wrist hurts.

I got a new book today and I'm excited about reading it and I got a new book ordered for tuesday and I'm super excited for that one.....I wanna read it so bad. The author was on oprah. Lol

I'm tired...

Mer

Peace.